road accident...!

I had a road accident yesterday. I was crossing the road on my way home from the supermarket and I just lost balance on my platforms and fell sideway; grocery flew out of my bags and the next thing I knew, someone was helping me up and carrying my belongings to the other side of the road. I was in so much pain that I stopped outside 7-11, checking my bones and wounds. My hand was bleeding, so as my knee. A large piece of skin came off my finger and the rest of my body was covered in purple. Lots of bruises. Unsightly even to someone who grew up with pain.

I feel handicapped as I can't use my hands in a normal way. I am not sure if there are cracked bones but my body is screaming out pain, loud and clear. I wondered what would have happened if the lights went green while I was sitting in the middle of the road, one of the busiest 24/7. I could have been ran over.

The older I get the more accident-prone I become. This is just another harsh reality of life which I must meet face on. Wounds and injuries take forever to heal (if at all) and my body parts are gradually falling apart. I have never liked my body and I am quite happy to be removed from it when my time is up. It's just flesh and bones to me which is degenerating by the second. All things come to an end and I know I won't miss it.

Finding your life purpose...

My decision of taking up the offer with an NGO instead of a paid position with a potential to split profit as a business developer has got me thinking of my values, my beliefs, and ultimately my life purposes. Why I chose work which doesn't pay the bills in times of financial difficulties could be enigmatic to most people but I can't feel better and my heart and soul are adamant about my final decision.

Having been an avid reader myself all my life plus publishing my first book a while back, I have always been drawn to the importance of literacy (and that's why I have been teaching!) and getting involved in NGO is something permanent on my planner, waiting to pounce on any opportunity that comes my way. I like to inspire and energise others, I like to give others back to themselves, I want to spend my time, resources, energy and sweat on a worthy cause which promotes literacy and life-long learning. This is not a new sense of purpose but something offloaded in the back burner, when life gets busy and chaotic just to get by.

I am starting small but I can see the potential down the road when I can gradually offer more to the cause. I am re-inventing myself anew after a setback of an extended period of unemployment and I see this as a turning point in my life when I can do more than simply teaching English. I am given a chance to lay the ground work towards my bliss. I do believe I am given the opportunity to refine my skills which will inevitably bring me closer to incorporate my purpose into my work; whatever that may be.

I choose to live a rich, abundant and radiant life which makes the world a better place to be. Living your purpose gives your life meaning. Living your purpose gives you a reason for being. It makes me feel fulfilled.

Have you ever stopped to name and frame your life purposes so that you know where you intend to make your meaning and how you intend to make yourself proud by your efforts? To help you find the meaning you bring to life, try the following and see if any works for you:

1. Ask yourself how you can create meaning and value from a challenging experience.Ask what good can come from the less than pleasant experiences. Condition your mindset of a warrior and let go of being a victim.
2. Take small risks and stretch yourself outside your comfort zone to build confidence.
3. Ask yourself what makes you come alive to find your passion.
4. Visualise yourself completing your goals and try to feel the feeling.
5. Commit to it with all your might. There is no turning back.
6. Meditate on death. Be aware of your mortality so you can harness the power of being alive. Ask yourself if you are happy with the life you have lived thus far.
7. Connect your dream to a higher purpose. The true value of your  passion is manifested through the lives you affect as a result of your work. Using your passion to serve others brings meaning to your existence.
8. Know that your purpose can and will change over time. As you grow and evolve, jobs and hobbies that make you happy at one time may no longer do so. However, the core intention and general life purpose remain unchanged.

My second week into the course

I am not big on goal setting but having some short-term ones certainly helps and decision-making is vital in the process. I have come to a point where I don't have a choice but enrolling in an e-course on social media marketing to make sense of how they work and apply what I learn to my fledging business in 6 weeks. A goal not to far-fectching yet reasonably priced.

I am in the 2nd week of the course and guess what? I don't find it enjoyable but downright frustrating. There is so much I know nothing about and this is equivalent to picking up Arabic. I am trying to enjoy the process which means practising and palying around the media buttons and getting the assignments done is the hardest part. I keep emailing queries to my instructor for clarification and help and I feel like an idiot among the group members. I break each week's assignment down into tiny actions over the week and avoid myself getting drowned in the overwhelming amount of info.

Gosh, who said technology is fun and easy???