I am currently in a transitory period when I left my job as a Private English teacher while seeking something more stable; in the sense that there's a schedule to follow and a fixed salary is rewarded for my time and effort in teaching.
I did question myself many times in the past 6 months if Teaching is my true calling as I didn't get the kind of responses I have expected from my potential employers and I started beating myself up for not trying harder, for not being good enough, for everything which prevented me from being invited for an interview.
I was literally confused.
Many people flinch at uncertainty, at the unknown, the confusion.
I was one of the majority.
Confusion is a period when 2 or more notions of your worldview, your self-definition, or of a creative project combine in ways you don't immediately grasp.
I thought arming with a TESOL qualification would bring me lots of teaching opportunities but that's obviously not the case to be.
I have always thought that I am a social butterfly only to realise how much space and privacy I need to be whole.
I wasn't sure if I should carry on teaching or make my handicraft my major source of income.
Confusion can be converted into creative innovation and personal break-through; when you constantly question yourself and be open to possibilities. We creatives are in perpetual uncertainty and yet it goes hand in hand with life.
The key is to learn to embrace uncertainty as a quest. There is no such thing as a perfect plan and we must be flexible enough to make changes accordingly to whatever comes up along the way. Welcome uncertainty like a good friend and learn how to function in the face of fear.
If nothing else, uncertainty certainly brings about possibilities and it is a beautiful thing!
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